We were out to dinner when someone in our party declared that they had recently begun taking anti-depressants.
“You know, I really resisted it. I felt so strange about taking medication, pills. I felt like I was altering myself,” our friend said.
“WHERE have you BEEN?” says Aunt Gerry. “I mean honestly, what rock have you been under that you are still working out this issue?” She went on incredulously. “If you can feel better, WHY wouldn’t you?”
If you can feel better, why wouldn’t you indeed. It wasn’t a discussion about chemicals, the benefits vs. the worries; our fears or our disappointments; our preoccupation with what it would mean to be One Of Those People who Takes Anti-Depressants. It was, go ahead, make yourself happy.
Sometimes, that’s the hardest part, even when we can see our way to getting there. Sometimes, I think we think that maybe we don’t deserve to feel good.
Also, Aunt Gerry likes to show off her feet in really great sandals, because, duh, look at those ankles. Beautiful. Make yourself feel good. Lesson 6.